[ well. this explains a lot. charlie watches it play out with increasing horror, even if there's elements to it she doesn't understand. she watches, and after it's finished playing out, she's quiet ]
.... I'm sorry to have seen something so personal, Brimstone.
[ she starts with that, though she's giving him a worried look ]
[ oh jesus christ. the second he realizes what's being shown, he goes tense and rigid. he doesn't rewatch the memory itself, just watches charlie for the entire duration like a hawk. for any minute hints of her response.
not that he needs to because then she blatantly looks over at him and it makes him want to both set things on fire and crawl into a hole. ]
Yeah, well. There's not. Either I can exist, or everyone else does. It's like that stupid trolley problem they were asking us early on--do you let me kill the Fentons and turn into a monster? Or do you pull the lever and make sure they're safe and I never exist at all?
Well, I'm not really the one governing, but-- [ this is the perfect time for a a memory! until 4:01 ]
[ lil context: ]
[ charlie is in heaven, trying to prove that her hotel works at redeeming sinners. she's defending angel dust, who fulfilled everything adam (the first man and the leader of the murder exorcist angels) said you should do to get into heaven (be selfless, don't steal, stick it to the man). and obviously, charlie is devastated to learn that vaggie has secretly been an angel exorcist this whole time. awkward. ]
[ the memory ends with adam forcibly ejecting vaggie and charlie from heaven, after bragging that he's coming to their hotel first :) ]
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.... I'm sorry to have seen something so personal, Brimstone.
[ she starts with that, though she's giving him a worried look ]
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not that he needs to because then she blatantly looks over at him and it makes him want to both set things on fire and crawl into a hole. ]
Don't--don't look at me like that.
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Sorry!
[ covers her eyes ]
Do you want to talk about it?
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But we don't have to talk about it. It's up to you.
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You said before that destroying everything and everyone didn't help, so... I think it's worth a shot?
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...none of them ever even came back as ghosts. I checked.
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If you had the chance to go back, would you have done things differently?
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I didn't fight this hard to keep existing just to give up on it.
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[ that makes a certain kind of sense ]
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This is all that I am.
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Okay, I get it now.
[ but she was more talking about the world he said he destroyed ]
I do want you to exist, Brimstone. Even though I wish there was a less violent way to ensure it.
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Yeah, well. There's not. Either I can exist, or everyone else does. It's like that stupid trolley problem they were asking us early on--do you let me kill the Fentons and turn into a monster? Or do you pull the lever and make sure they're safe and I never exist at all?
Easy enough choice.
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[ ... ]
Well. You are in Heaven now. So you don't have to go back to that.
[ redeem urself danstone the hedgehog ]
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Surely it's not that bad of an idea, though?
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[ lil context: ]
[ charlie is in heaven, trying to prove that her hotel works at redeeming sinners. she's defending angel dust, who fulfilled everything adam (the first man and the leader of the murder exorcist angels) said you should do to get into heaven (be selfless, don't steal, stick it to the man). and obviously, charlie is devastated to learn that vaggie has secretly been an angel exorcist this whole time. awkward. ]
[ the memory ends with adam forcibly ejecting vaggie and charlie from heaven, after bragging that he's coming to their hotel first :) ]
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there's a few quiet moments after the memory where he's just trying to process what all he just saw
and then he starts laughing. it's not a pleasant one--it's harsh and mean. if you're waiting for him to stop, he doesn't. he just keeps going. ]
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[ but. yeah. she will wait it out ]
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[ another short bark of laughter ] Why were you even trying with them?!
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At the time, I thought they weren't all like that. I thought some angels would listen.
[ emily did. ]
Aside from Emily, I was wrong.
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