Generous. [ he's sitting up a little taller as if it'll help him see the track better while they climb higher and higher... ] Anything with less than two 360 loops is dead to me. Unless it goes insanely fast.
[ he's saying this in his usual deadpan tone but. emotionsharing means the actual emotions are extremely excited which is jarring in comparison. listen. anyone who is not excited about roller coasters is also dead to him just because again he likes anything for an adrenaline rush. ]
[ he raises an eyebrow. don't perceive him, that's rude. ]
We'll see. [ and down they go!! for my own amusement and because it just says "a couple of coasters" and after watching various youtube videos and missing coasters myself this one a.) takes off immediately at 70+ mph in 2 seconds b.) has two 360 loops and c.) a few other corkscrew turns because why the fuck not. is it entirely possible they just didn't look at the track and couldn't see it from the line? yeah. away they go!!!
this is probably a good three minutes, at least. ]
[ the thing is, he did not want to be thrilled on the thrill ride. he wanted to maintain his cool cred and be completely unaffected by this, but unfortunately he is a human being with a human heart that is pumping him full of adrenaline
and he is trying so hard to look like that's not the case. he finally manages to unpeel his fingers from the safety bar and clears his throat. ]
[ the safety bar lifts and he does actually laugh. ]
Uh huh. Guess we'll have to find something else to meet your expectations. [ devious. he does not plan to right away because danny still looks completely shellshocked, but he hops up and bounds out of the cart to the platform to exit. at least he's polite enough to wait for him to follow. ]
[ buddy. he is not perceiving! (he is definitely kind of perceiving but sparing his pride from pointing it out.) it could also be because now that they're not in the moment his emotions kind of drift out of being extremely thrilled and carefree to their baseline feelings. it's calm, but there's definitely a bit of worry mixed in, a little anxiety, and some frustration settling on the surface. his thoughts are already drifting again, but he does look over his shoulder toward him. ]
[ when his skull stops rattling around his brain and he notices the worry, the anxiety and frustration, it amplifies Danny's own and now he can't quite get back to that distraction frame of mind. ]
Looking for something else to do? I think that's why I asked you where to next. [ it's hard to say if he's doing this on purpose or not, but it does seem that most of that cocktail of emotions isn't even really directed at danny himself. ]
When you told me someone had ordered you to do what you did, I had already suspected your leader was responsible. Context of things helps. And even then, I don't think you should've died the way you did.
[ which isn't really an answer so much as an explanation for why he doesn't have an answer. ]
...the day after I told you, I got a message saying I violated the rule for keeping the role a secret. Then the app got deleted off my phone and that was that. I thought I was being vague enough still, but I guess not.
I didn't even think there was an app, but of course there was. [ he feels vaguely annoyed again. ] To be honest, a part of me was kind of scared that you'd been killed because you told me as much as you did. I'm glad it wasn't that, but...you get it.
[ annoying as hell though all the same. ]
...do you regret telling me at all? As much as you did, I mean.
No. I thought it was revenge for killing Reigen, but it wasn't that either. Apparently Hanako just really hated my guts.
[ SEETHING HATRED AND ANNOYANCE
but then it softens. ]
...not really. By that point, I don't think I would've wanted to kill anyone else anyway, and I'm sure everyone else would've preferred that too. And if it helped you understand more why I did it, then... [ shrugs ] it worked out, I guess.
[ STOP also yeah look it's 2023 and neither demigod actually owns a cell phone.
anyway there is. a huge spike of irritation at the mention of hanako even if most of his facial expression doesn't change. it's just a flicker of a frown outwardly. but...then it switches to something more thoughtful. ]
...I feel as though I should apologize for not pushing him a little harder. By the time I thought that maybe we should be pushing everybody, I had my hands full. Not that it helped. [ he tried to protect will but things still happened, he means. more to the point... ]
I'll agree that yeah, I would've preferred you stopped murdering so I can't say I'm upset it stopped. And it did help. [ there's...something uneasy there, still. ] Mostly in that it helped put into context that while it started off that you felt more bad about how the rest of us were reacting you do still have a moral compass there. Even if it's rusty. Maybe it's something I've been thinking on lately.
Please. You're not even close to the only one who coddled that little brat and let him get away with anything and everything. [ he's angry and irritated, but not at nico ] It's how young he looks. Everyone thinks he's actually a child and so he never has to face any consequences. [ there's also a bit of indignation in the mix now too--how unfair, that if he'd been put in a clone body just a little bit younger he could've done SO MUCH MURDER!!!! WITH NO CONSEQUENCE AT ALL! (au where dan got put in a second dani body, oh lord)
anyway he still thinks that calling it a "moral compass" is taking it a little far, considering that he still doesn't really care about having killed reigen so much as hurting his friends' feelings, but. maybe that's not something he should say right now. ]
It had nothing to do with coddling so much as I was trying not to get Will killed. Hanako was the least of my problems at the time but knowing what I know now I'm not sure I would've hesitated to vote for him. Even if it upset some people.
[ him and his seven fucking votes. but it's whatever. he's totally chill. absolutely fine. the seething anger is just for show. (as is the underlying frustration and hurt about a few things that he's busy wrestling back and going ahhhhhhh about.)
that aside. yeah! that's probably not something he should say right now given he's had another conversation in that same vein about if danny's actually sorry or just sorry how it's impacting other people and other people's views on him. he has to draw his own conclusions here. ]
But sure. Kind of hard not to think about murder and consequences and morally grey areas in a place like this.
...I'm still angry about how it happened and that it happened in the first place. And that you jumped at the chance and that nobody asked questions why it had to be that way. But...ultimately it's not up to me to decide to take away your chance to try again to redeem yourself. It's a journey you're gonna have to take on your own, but I won't be the one to take the opportunity away from you.
[ so. it's not really total forgiveness because it was still fucked up, but he has decided that if danny still wants a second chance to try and fix things and become his own, better person, he'll still help him with that. he's still willing to hang out with him and spend time with him. he's not cutting off ties. ]
[ for a second he's a little put out that this isn't a neat and happy forgiveness. but...he was never going to get that, was he? this is probably the most generous response he can hope for. especially given how torched some of his other relationships have become. ]
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[ the track starts climbing, taking them upwards! ]
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[ he's saying this in his usual deadpan tone but. emotionsharing means the actual emotions are extremely excited which is jarring in comparison. listen. anyone who is not excited about roller coasters is also dead to him just because again he likes anything for an adrenaline rush. ]
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And here I'd think 'dead to you' wouldn't be as bad of a rating as you make it sound. Time to find out, though.
[ the roller coaster has reached its peak...and down they go! i leave it to you how this coaster will actually go ]
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We'll see. [ and down they go!! for my own amusement and because it just says "a couple of coasters" and after watching various youtube videos and missing coasters myself this one a.) takes off immediately at 70+ mph in 2 seconds b.) has two 360 loops and c.) a few other corkscrew turns because why the fuck not. is it entirely possible they just didn't look at the track and couldn't see it from the line? yeah. away they go!!!
this is probably a good three minutes, at least. ]
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i have no idea how intense of a coaster that is but it SOUNDS intense so I guess danny is just sitting there dumbfounded and speechless ]
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sadly the vibes are extremely pleased and now they are also highkey amused as he looks back over and sort of waves his hand in danny's face. ]
Areeee you good? [ sound less amused as well. ]
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and he is trying so hard to look like that's not the case. he finally manages to unpeel his fingers from the safety bar and clears his throat. ]
...like I said. A four.
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Uh huh. Guess we'll have to find something else to meet your expectations. [ devious. he does not plan to right away because danny still looks completely shellshocked, but he hops up and bounds out of the cart to the platform to exit. at least he's polite enough to wait for him to follow. ]
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do not fucking perceive this ]
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Where to next? [ distractions, maybe. ]
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...I--what are we doing right now, Nico?
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Are we supposed to be doing something else?
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When you told me someone had ordered you to do what you did, I had already suspected your leader was responsible. Context of things helps. And even then, I don't think you should've died the way you did.
[ which isn't really an answer so much as an explanation for why he doesn't have an answer. ]
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...wait--really?
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I didn't even think there was an app, but of course there was. [ he feels vaguely annoyed again. ] To be honest, a part of me was kind of scared that you'd been killed because you told me as much as you did. I'm glad it wasn't that, but...you get it.
[ annoying as hell though all the same. ]
...do you regret telling me at all? As much as you did, I mean.
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No. I thought it was revenge for killing Reigen, but it wasn't that either. Apparently Hanako just really hated my guts.
[ SEETHING HATRED AND ANNOYANCE
but then it softens. ]
...not really. By that point, I don't think I would've wanted to kill anyone else anyway, and I'm sure everyone else would've preferred that too. And if it helped you understand more why I did it, then... [ shrugs ] it worked out, I guess.
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anyway there is. a huge spike of irritation at the mention of hanako even if most of his facial expression doesn't change. it's just a flicker of a frown outwardly. but...then it switches to something more thoughtful. ]
...I feel as though I should apologize for not pushing him a little harder. By the time I thought that maybe we should be pushing everybody, I had my hands full. Not that it helped. [ he tried to protect will but things still happened, he means. more to the point... ]
I'll agree that yeah, I would've preferred you stopped murdering so I can't say I'm upset it stopped. And it did help. [ there's...something uneasy there, still. ] Mostly in that it helped put into context that while it started off that you felt more bad about how the rest of us were reacting you do still have a moral compass there. Even if it's rusty. Maybe it's something I've been thinking on lately.
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anyway he still thinks that calling it a "moral compass" is taking it a little far, considering that he still doesn't really care about having killed reigen so much as hurting his friends' feelings, but. maybe that's not something he should say right now. ]
You have?
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[ him and his seven fucking votes. but it's whatever. he's totally chill. absolutely fine. the seething anger is just for show. (as is the underlying frustration and hurt about a few things that he's busy wrestling back and going ahhhhhhh about.)
that aside. yeah! that's probably not something he should say right now given he's had another conversation in that same vein about if danny's actually sorry or just sorry how it's impacting other people and other people's views on him. he has to draw his own conclusions here. ]
But sure. Kind of hard not to think about murder and consequences and morally grey areas in a place like this.
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[ Danny is just barely restraining himself from murdering hanako at all times actually, ]
...and what did you decide in the end?
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...I'm still angry about how it happened and that it happened in the first place. And that you jumped at the chance and that nobody asked questions why it had to be that way. But...ultimately it's not up to me to decide to take away your chance to try again to redeem yourself. It's a journey you're gonna have to take on your own, but I won't be the one to take the opportunity away from you.
[ so. it's not really total forgiveness because it was still fucked up, but he has decided that if danny still wants a second chance to try and fix things and become his own, better person, he'll still help him with that. he's still willing to hang out with him and spend time with him. he's not cutting off ties. ]
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Well...I guess I should say thanks, then.
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