You look at someone pathetic or suffering and go "awww, how sad!" and it does nothing to help them or fix the problem. And no matter what you call it, you know they feel smug and superior that they're not like that themselves.
Not much, yet. Getting used to being human again was...taking up most of my energy. Then the body started falling apart and I had other things to focus on.
It's unstable. It's a clone, and none of them were ever fully stabilized, apparently, even when he thought they were, so. I got sick. And then I started melting.
It seems like none of that applies here, though. I guess stability doesn't matter when you're already dead.
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You look at someone pathetic or suffering and go "awww, how sad!" and it does nothing to help them or fix the problem. And no matter what you call it, you know they feel smug and superior that they're not like that themselves.
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Okay, I can see how it'd come across that way. [ she does not look smug and superior, that's for sure ] So, instead, let me say.
How can I help? Is there anything I can do to fix the problem? Even just a little?
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I hate what I have now. But...what I had before wasn't any better.
[ he says that last part quietly, like it's a secret he's afraid to confess ]
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What did you have before?
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And before that...nothing but the ruins of a world I destroyed.
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Why did you destroy it?
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It sounds like... it didn't change how you felt.
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...I thought it did. At the time.
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I thought it made me feel better. More...in control. But then everything fell apart anyway, and--
...well, now I'm here.
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[ ... ]
So maybe, we could try something else? To make you feel better.
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The body... it wasn't the same as the one you're in now, was it?
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[ oh no ]
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It seems like none of that applies here, though. I guess stability doesn't matter when you're already dead.
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Right, well, I'm really glad you're not melting or sick.
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he struggles to find an easy way to describe vlad ]
He's...the person I live with now. We were supposed to help each other become better.
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