... It's not like you were wrong. And I didn't want someone innocent to die for me in the first place. I promised Sigrun as much. I just... couldn't manage to say it myself while the trial was going, and then half the time I didn't even remember doing it.
... Yeah. That was part of it. But I got a note that basically said my world and my team's worlds would be forfeit if I didn't kill someone. [ he's grimacing at that, because. he hates. doing what he is told to do actually. ] ... If each team does a kill, supposedly that's how everyone can get home. If that's true, then I wasn't going to make Albedo or Tama do it. So. I told Sigrun everything, and asked her to fight me.
...you can deny it all you want, but that's exactly what makes you good, Ace. That you wanted to spare others from having to do it, and being honest about it with Sigrun, and wanting to confess even if you couldn't.
I don't know about win, but... ah, Temenos has the exact wording for it. He's the one who got the message last week. But the way home will only open with that, or something. Moon related.
[ he sounds so tired at that. anyway, danny says that and he kind of sighs before he smiles, a little wry ]
... It's selfish, too. I've never been good at losing people. If it's me, then I don't have to deal with it.
[ blinks, then looks down, rubbing an arm uncomfortably ]
I mean...I was scared. People were suspicious of me. I wanted to find definitive proof that pointed to someone else so that no one could play guessing games and have me end up like Hans.
I was so focused on it that I...didn't hesitate to call you out.
You're not exactly on Hans' level. [ of people being like damn... this guy sucks. ace is saying this about a dead man and doesn't care. ] Even when you were being looked at... No one really wanted it to have been you. Remember?
It's okay. [ ... ] If I'm honest, even Reigen's killer... I'm selfish, so I wanted to know who did it, because he's a friend. But Reigen himself looked guilty of some pretty messed up stuff when he defended himself from Yae Miko. Maybe whoever did it had a stupid message like I did, and thought he was a better target, the way I did Sigrun. Maybe they didn't mean for it to be that bad the same way Reigen hadn't meant for it.
[ ... he looks away ]
I'm not the kind of guy who can forgive them, even in that scenario, but being better at killing people doesn't make me good.
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...why'd you do it? Because of--Will mentioned something to me about each team having to do a kill?
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[ idle. and at that he tilts his head ]
... Yeah. That was part of it. But I got a note that basically said my world and my team's worlds would be forfeit if I didn't kill someone. [ he's grimacing at that, because. he hates. doing what he is told to do actually. ] ... If each team does a kill, supposedly that's how everyone can get home. If that's true, then I wasn't going to make Albedo or Tama do it. So. I told Sigrun everything, and asked her to fight me.
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[ he looks gobsmacked by that for a moment ]
...you can deny it all you want, but that's exactly what makes you good, Ace. That you wanted to spare others from having to do it, and being honest about it with Sigrun, and wanting to confess even if you couldn't.
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[ he sounds so tired at that. anyway, danny says that and he kind of sighs before he smiles, a little wry ]
... It's selfish, too. I've never been good at losing people. If it's me, then I don't have to deal with it.
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Well...then as the guy who named and shamed you, we can both be selfish.
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What do you mean?
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I mean...I was scared. People were suspicious of me. I wanted to find definitive proof that pointed to someone else so that no one could play guessing games and have me end up like Hans.
I was so focused on it that I...didn't hesitate to call you out.
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You're not exactly on Hans' level. [ of people being like damn... this guy sucks. ace is saying this about a dead man and doesn't care. ] Even when you were being looked at... No one really wanted it to have been you. Remember?
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No one wanted it to be you, either.
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... Yeah. But it was me.
[ shrugs ]
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...I guess so.
I'm sorry.
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[ ... he looks away ]
I'm not the kind of guy who can forgive them, even in that scenario, but being better at killing people doesn't make me good.
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Doing it to spare others and to try and save everyone does, though.
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[ tries to joke about it because he is uncomfortable being called good ]
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Oh yeah? What about Albedo?
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C'mon. A guy with that complexion? It'd be an atrocity.
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...but yeah, staying out of jail is better than becoming a prison jumpsuit couture model, as a general rule.
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[ aha. fnnuy. ]