oh, he fucked up. he knew that already, knew it the moment he saw nimona's face when the news of reigen's death first broke, but this really hammers it home in a brand new way.
he can't help the confusion on his face at her declaration that he deserves to stay alive. he doesn't understand how she can say that. can't fathom that kind of sentiment from someone who has every reason in the world to kill him.
but he doesn't voice any of that because her thoughts come through and-- ]
...you're not, Nimona. Like I keep saying--you're a good person. And easily the best Tiger here.
[ also i keep forgetting but in every tag of this conversation danny just scratches more and more--at his face, at his neck, at his arms, everywhere. red welts are beginning to show up all over the place.
BUT NEVER MIND ALL THAT, because danny flinches at the spit and hangs his head low, not feeling like he even has the right to look up at her anymore. ]
...I see.
[ and isn't it all the more painful that somehow, she's right? he'd thought the worst thing that could happen to him is death, disappearing--but no. it's this feeling, right now. this is a kind of self-loathing danny hasn't felt since his family died. ]
she does pause here - partially because the welts are. weird, and unusual. but also because it - it feels cruel. she's been alone for so, so long. she knows how bad it hurts. she hurts, right now, her hand and her heart and everything in her, she wants to take it out on someone, she wants him to hurt the way she has, so badly, since ace died. since she watched him drown himself, steady and slow. since they found the pieces of reigen's heart all over the floor.
she thinks about a conversation they had before. she thinks about how he told her that he caught ghosts and he took them home. how everybody looked at him like he was a monster, how his own family couldn't have ever known because they'd hate him too, and she --
[she stares at him for a long moment more - her eyes are still white, she can't help that. and then:]
... I need to leave. [impulse week is getting the better of her, here. she reaches up to wipe at her face, breath shaking.] You took - you took them. From me.
You were told to. I heard that, but I need to not be here right now.
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oh, he fucked up. he knew that already, knew it the moment he saw nimona's face when the news of reigen's death first broke, but this really hammers it home in a brand new way.
he can't help the confusion on his face at her declaration that he deserves to stay alive. he doesn't understand how she can say that. can't fathom that kind of sentiment from someone who has every reason in the world to kill him.
but he doesn't voice any of that because her thoughts come through and-- ]
...you're not, Nimona. Like I keep saying--you're a good person. And easily the best Tiger here.
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[she spits at him.]
Besides. Reigen asked me not to. He didn't want me to hurt you.
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BUT NEVER MIND ALL THAT, because danny flinches at the spit and hangs his head low, not feeling like he even has the right to look up at her anymore. ]
...I see.
[ and isn't it all the more painful that somehow, she's right? he'd thought the worst thing that could happen to him is death, disappearing--but no. it's this feeling, right now. this is a kind of self-loathing danny hasn't felt since his family died. ]
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she does pause here - partially because the welts are. weird, and unusual. but also because it - it feels cruel. she's been alone for so, so long. she knows how bad it hurts. she hurts, right now, her hand and her heart and everything in her, she wants to take it out on someone, she wants him to hurt the way she has, so badly, since ace died. since she watched him drown himself, steady and slow. since they found the pieces of reigen's heart all over the floor.
she thinks about a conversation they had before. she thinks about how he told her that he caught ghosts and he took them home. how everybody looked at him like he was a monster, how his own family couldn't have ever known because they'd hate him too, and she --
she falters.]
Why did you.
[she asks, voice wet.]
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I was told to.
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By who, Tiger?
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blinks ]
Tiger?
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You're breaking out. Why is that happening.
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[ looks down at himself because he was so lost in his own misery sauce that he didn't even notice ]
I...I have no idea.
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... I need to leave. [impulse week is getting the better of her, here. she reaches up to wipe at her face, breath shaking.] You took - you took them. From me.
You were told to. I heard that, but I need to not be here right now.
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Whatever you need.
[ he almost says sorry but that's such a weak, paltry word in the face of what he's done to nimona. ]
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and then she turns and leaves, out of a building she hates more than anything.]