[ squints at her in suspicion...but lets it go for now. at least in conversation. her radiating love is basically a negative buff on his mood for as long as he feels it. ]
Fine! Do whatever you want! Try to--to get to know me, or befriend me, or whatever it is you're after! Set yourself up for disappointment, what do I care.
now along with all of the above, there's also self-loathing and despair--which he tries to shove down in favor of anger, more anger.
we voided this thread, didn't we? well now i'm making it take place at the fair so that brimstone furiously rip out one of the tentpoles of a souvenir vendor's tent and start beating it down as it collapses with a violent roar. he adds some ecto-blasts for good measure, which leaves the entire thing a burnt and shredded pile. ]
[ she remains calm although it's no accompanied with concern. the self-loathing and despair‐that's what she was expecting to surface eventually, but it does make her sad.
she watches him destroy, as he vents his negativity. ]
How does destroying that make you feel? Did it make you feel better?
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...Anders. And Jiaoqiu.
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Jiaoqiu doesn't surprise me. Why Anders?
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What's it to you?
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[ her emotions reflect it enough if his negative buff lets him decipher it under her love. ]
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[ the emotion is sincerity. ]
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[ under the crankiness there is now also complete bafflement ]
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Fine! Do whatever you want! Try to--to get to know me, or befriend me, or whatever it is you're after! Set yourself up for disappointment, what do I care.
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just absolutely off the charts distress, shock, anger, disgust, ping ponging all over the place ]
I--that's not--! It's not about being a disappointment, it's just that I'm a destroyer! I destroy things. Including relationships.
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Is that fulfilling for you? It looks to me it leaves you feeling too much and too little all at once.
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now along with all of the above, there's also self-loathing and despair--which he tries to shove down in favor of anger, more anger.
we voided this thread, didn't we? well now i'm making it take place at the fair so that brimstone furiously rip out one of the tentpoles of a souvenir vendor's tent and start beating it down as it collapses with a violent roar. he adds some ecto-blasts for good measure, which leaves the entire thing a burnt and shredded pile. ]
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she watches him destroy, as he vents his negativity. ]
How does destroying that make you feel? Did it make you feel better?
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It should!!
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[ she says it gently. ]
It hasn't, and it likely won't ever.
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